淡淡的小品電影，不需要有激烈盪氣回腸的愛情，亦不用那些生離死別的情節，卻能令人最窩心，最會心微笑！就是這種大家都經歷過的故事，最令人喜愛，也就是我一向喜歡看的genre!

入戲院前，我已經想到它只是另一齣＜海角七號＞。但看畢，卻有另一番驚喜！＜那些年＞令我想起他，一個曾經的他，一段多麼實在的經歷。柯騰和沈佳宜提醒了我，我也如此青春過！

最喜歡的一幕便是那播著他們倆一起走入對方的生命的點滴，由大家亙相抗拒到大家彼此支持，那些傻氣的行為，加上背景音樂，讓我開始完全投入電影中…

看著哭著的柯騰，眞的有種心疼的感覺，對！是那久違了心疼的感覺！一個男孩為了一個女孩哭得那麼厲害，眞的抵擋不了那種情深！而這種感覺，是多麼的似曾相識…

那些年 我們一起過過的瘋狂歲月，真令人懷念！我的青春，你好嗎？謝謝你喜歡我！

青春 真好！

跟你素未謀面, 但自從事件發生後, 一直有留意有關你的報導, 不論是你生前的,還是你在事件中遇害的經過, 但是愈看得多, 心情就愈是傷心。 不明白為什麼這麼荒謬、這麼殘忍、這麼不幸的事竟會發生！雖然不認識你，但不知為何總是覺得跟你很近、很有connection似的，可能是因為瑜伽吧！我傻得在想：如果你真的當了瑜伽導師，這有多好啊！可惜，這個世界真的沒有＂如果＂的！每當想到你的勇敢，堅守到生命最後一刻也是為別人服務，但成為第一名犧牲者，我的心真的很難過，心情亦沉重起來。這種心情自事件發生以來，一直影響著我的生活，一直不能開懷。直到數天前我一早起來準備上班的是時候(我已整整一年沒有工作了!)，我突然想通：Masa所做的工作、教瑜伽和做人的態度，都是想帶給身邊的人快樂，只要我們快樂，他就會快樂，我們怎可以為著他而傷心和難過呢？你留給我們的，不應該是眼淚和遺憾，而是快樂，記得你那句：”If you want to be happy, nobody can stop you !!”嗎？我想：每當我不開心，工作至累極的時候，我就會想起你那對生命的熱誠、對快樂的追求和你那服務別人的精神，還有你那陽光的笑容，一直照耀著：）謝謝你！你給我們上了一節寶貴的生命課堂！你知道嗎？你的生命不是白白犧牲了，而是燃亮了別人的！我想這也是你想做的事情吧！

雖然我們擁有不同的宗教信仰，但我相信：好人，殊途是會同歸的！相信有一天，我們會在天國相遇，到時再真真正正認識你吧！：）

不管你往哪裡，未來的路，一路好走！希望你在另一世界繼續追求你的快樂！永遠懷念你！
祝你愉快！

終於都用哂HABA既cleansing powder, 可以轉用Aesop了! 　雖然未出糧，但都忍不住一口氣買下了3 steps – cleanser, toner and moisturizer! 大滿足！

However, life is somehow so hectic and future is so uncertain that I simply can’t help thinking like that. I remember the source of my wisdom to make that big decision was from God. That was He guiding me through all the way to what I am now. Yet I feel really ashamed that I don’t feel the strength to carry on, and that I start to question myself and Him. 

No one said it was easy, but You told me I could do it.
But I literally need the strength, wisdom and confidence to get through the hardship, and to carry on…and I really wanna regain the determination and courage once I held really tight.

Well, didn’t do any updates these few days…coz i have been so busy….busy playing, hanging out, working……ai, dun really wanna mention about today’s work……he’s my new student…..a RC boy…..naughty…..and impolite!!

I’ve got damn terrible experience today. I got hurt by that P.4 naughty boy, both physically and mentally…… Although i know he didn’t do that intentionally, i feel so bad….i wonder why a kid can be this naughty and violent….u know what, he was punching the desk with his pencil!!! I have been very careful all the time, but this time i was paying full attention in teaching him…..can’t escape~~ I am now thinking if i should quit the job….SIGH!!!

Never thought that I would meet the kid again…..can’t imagine that I would really meet him again, after 5 years, and he apologised to me for his misbehaviour! haha! We had met 5 yeras earlier with such unforgettable experience…no wonder he seemed “special” to me!

Time flies, finally it’s come to the end of the teaching practicum. When I saw the 3C class waiting for me at the door without me threatening with the 5-min rule :p, I smiled from the bottom of my heart. (People may not know how rare it was to see such a scene…hahah) Anyway, thanks 3C for being such a good class who made my days easier. And I always can’t believe how lucky I am to have such a helpful and nice mentor in this intensive learning phase, where I’ve really learnt a lot! Although the time with you guys had been short…I’ll always remember every one of you, the nicknames, someone’s loud voice, someone always taking out the mirror and checking if hair still looks good, the in-jokes, the singing, the silly things….and every single subtle thing which made me smile

Health:
1.       Drink plenty of water.
2.       Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3.       Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4.       Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5.       Make time to pray.
6.       Play more games
7.       Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8.       Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9.       Sleep for 7 hours.
10.      Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11.    Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about..
12.    Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13.    Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
14.    Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15.    Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
16.    Dream more while you are awake
17.    Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18.    Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19.    Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
20.    Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
21.    No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22.    Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.  Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23.    Smile and laugh more.
24.    You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree….

Society:
25.    Call your family often.
26.    Each day give something good to others.
27.    Forgive everyone for everything..
28.    Spend time with/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of  6.
29.    Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30.    What other people think of you is none of your business.
31.    Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32.    Do the right thing!
33.    Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
34.    GOD heals everything.
35.    However good or bad a situation is, it will change…
36.    No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37.    The best is yet to come..
38.    When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39.    Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Ohh I felt so happy to receive this Handbook!! This has once again reminded me to set goals for the new year, though i always have that in mind…just that i’ve been occupied with the torturing ling. assignment! Hahaha…anyway, it’s gone..I’ve KO it finally! Actually when i was doing the reading about advertising and tackling the Q about advertising, I never realized that how much i’m interested in it :p

Back to goal setting, i’ve been thinking of making myself happier in 2010…though 2009 was somehow a good year to me, I did feel depressed all the time..for no remarked reason…Anyway, I clearly know I needa prepare myself a extremely positive mind and self-motivated attitude in the year 2010, which is forseen to be a year full of changes and CHALLENGES, and opportunities as well of course!

1) Striving for excellence – which is the attitude once I always sticked to in whatever I did..and also felt proud of. This is the very first thing I wanna regain and maintain in this year.

2) Flourish every relationship i’ve build with others – this is particularly important in my family! After experiencing death, I was reminded how fragile life can be. I needa cherish every relationship. Every time we say goodbye, we dunno if there’s chance we can say goodbye again.

3) Polish my language ability, especially English - this is utterly important as I gonna be the language model of bunch of young people

4) Be an early bird – not to stay up for fooling around for the sake of health, beauty and simply for it’s a good habit

5) No more lateness and rush – not to do things until last minute, always allow some spare time before i needa rush to do anything, for making my life a more relaxed one and not dissapointing others!

6) Always feel positive and motivated, and stay happy all the time

7) Last but not least – Stay closer to God, get to know Him better, be a real Christian

Okay, let’s see how they go in 2010

2009 was a year of change. From the time i made the decision of applying for PGDE, I knew I would lead a very different life. At the beginning of the year, I submitted my application for the programme. I attended the written test and left with little hope of being admitted. But then I was shortlisted for an interview. Because of series of unfortunate events and shaken determination, I thought of giving up the interview. Yet, I was pushed to give it a try. Though I had nearly zero hope for the admission, I was given a place eventually. I knew it was the plan of God’s. So I kept following his plan even though I did feel a bit unsure sometimes.

Before back to school and shifting my career, I was glad I had had a chance to work  with nice colleagues and been given lots of opportunities for a good company where I really enjoyed the tenure.

In September, I returned to be a student again. A new environment, unfamiliar people, intensive lessons, tonnes of readings…everything just seemed tough to me. In October, I left for Australia, where I had been to for the first time, for the immersion programme. Without much mental preparation, I didn’t gain much in terms of cultural and academic wise. It would have been much more fruitful if I had been more proactive, hard working and authentic….anyway, it was still a great journey where I got to know more about another culture and the new friends, with whom we shared a common experience and built a friendship

On one side, I established new relationships; on the other hand, I lost someone in my life. I always knew life is unpredictable, but never imagined life could be that fragile. I couldn’t even remember when I said good-bye to her last time. Everything happened just appeared so cruel to be true. How I wished it didn’t happen at all. If it was to happen as what He’d planned, how I wished I’d had a good chat with her last time i saw her. Yet sadly, life is meant to be filled with regrets. I need to do as much as I can before regrets come.

Girls’ nite on Christmas eve, as what we did last year. But this year, thanks to K, we got to see a really good movie – Sherlock Holmes! This kind of detective movie was never my cup of tea. I just went into the cinema for Jude Law, who looked a bit older in the movie, but still cool! Besides the plot, the castings and the witty and smart characters, what i also liked about the movie was the UK accent, which is easily comprehended, and their humorous use of language!

This has indeed prompted me to go to book stores and get the book of this original story! Honestly, I really feel the urge to polish my English…not only for my career development, but also for my personal sake. It was once one of my passions and strengths, yet I can’t tell why it seems to have deteriorated a lot. OK, i know the situation isn’t that bad as I am now aware of such…..

every time you stay close to me, i feel weird and just can’t stay as who i am
i can’t find any words coming out of my mouth for not willing to accept the truth that you’re not interested in what i’m talking. so i’d better keep my mouth shut. and yet, you must not realize how much i want to talk to you, to hear your stories, to know your likes and hates…and to be the historian of your 20 sth years of life. 

i know i should stop falling for you…but you know what, just a smile or just a few-second eye contact is sweet enough to make my day. please teach me how to quit. it’s clear that i’m addicted to you…keep thinking of you like a drug addict. but so what?

i desperately wanna regain my authenticity, honesty, stupidity to follow my heart….and to be myself.